ramblings of a 20-something-year-old magical gal...

after realizing that i am neurodivergent in my adult years, i’ve become thankful that i grew up with enough sense and friends/family who cared abt my well-being. chris-chan is one of my major interest bc it’s so fascinating but tragic learning what they became. i advocate nurturing nds to grow in their interests and not be bothered by societal demands, but chris-chan just defies all of that. it’s not totally their fault - the early internet was (and still is tbh) disgusting towards autistic individuals. the parents of chis-chan are the WORST example of how not to teach and love autistic children. i spiral into thinking what my life would’ve been like if i grew up in that household and had pure unfiltered internet access. it’s like watching livecam vids. you shouldn’t be watching this, but ur curiosity hungers to see the carnage. u want chris-chan to fall for ur entertainment, even if u know its morally wrong. it's just sad. no more..!

i was too young perusing through it without a care in the world, and i was born a bit too late to truly feel that y2k nostalgia. but i had fun - website were still wonky and ugly. flash games were at their prime. i didn't spend my internet days on social media just scrolling. i had interaction. i clicked things and was transported to new worlds. i made crappy paint art and was proud of it. youtube had videos of ppl just chillin and not giving a care abt the world. and now i want to make the next gen's internet users feel that again. no more..!